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Blulizrdboots
New member
Username: Blulizrdboots
Post Number: 41
Registered: 05-2005
| | Posted on Wednesday, November 02, 2005 - 11:48 pm: | 
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I am not in the best place in the world. It's annoying to me because for four months I've been used to having people around and pretty much hiding that feeling. I just feel like I need, very much so, to speak it out...or at the very least type it out. Yes I have friends I could talk to, but I have a bad habit of over-doing things, or just feeling like I am. I'm in a mood where I pretty much NEED to talk to someone but the people I would want to talk to aren't here. What's more, the one person I was expecting to email me back didn't...I'm certain she just got busy, but when you're in a mood like this and not get a reply you were pretty much expecting doesn't help the mood you're in.
I know that I'm just complaining, and I shouldn't. but right now I don't really care. Actually that's not true because if I didn't care I would have mentioned it at all, but regardless.
It also doesn't help that I'm trying to I supose, break it off with my boy friend of almost five years. It's not that I don't love him, it's just the way I do love him. It's more like a brother/sister love...I hate that! And I hate it because I feel so mean, it's just I don't know HOW to end it and I don't want to hurt him, which is stupid because I'm going to whenever I actually get the freaking nerve to do it. It's just he and I were each other's first relationship. I dunno. |
Ziggy
Supreme Spanko
Username: Ziggy
Post Number: 860
Registered: 08-2005
| | Posted on Thursday, November 03, 2005 - 01:37 pm: |
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you can talk to me blulizrdboots. life is to short to be with a person or a relationship that doesn't work anymore. yes you will hurt him, but remember you will also hurt yourself if you don't break up with him...... don't keep all of this pinned up inside of you, it will eat you up and make you unhealthy ok, you can send me and email if you like alright, take care. hugs. |
Blulizrdboots
New member
Username: Blulizrdboots
Post Number: 42
Registered: 05-2005
| | Posted on Thursday, November 03, 2005 - 03:00 pm: |
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thanks...but he doesn't deserve that. He's so sweet and nice, but the way I feel he doesn't deserve me and I know that's an old line but with this it's true.
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Ziggy
Supreme Spanko
Username: Ziggy
Post Number: 865
Registered: 08-2005
| | Posted on Thursday, November 03, 2005 - 07:10 pm: |
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hey you shouldn't put yourself down like that. you come first. |
Fanny
Moderator/Spanking Aficionado
Username: Fanny
Post Number: 1652
Registered: 05-2005
| | Posted on Thursday, November 03, 2005 - 07:14 pm: |
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Talk to me bootsy.
Queen of Innocence
"Well behaved woman rarely make history"
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Blulizrdboots
New member
Username: Blulizrdboots
Post Number: 44
Registered: 05-2005
| | Posted on Thursday, November 03, 2005 - 10:12 pm: |
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I know I shouldn't but that's how I feel about it. And it's kind of strange that I'm concerned because he didn't call today like he normally will especially b/c of what i'm planing. |
Shadowrose45
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Username: Shadowrose45
Post Number: 47
Registered: 10-2005
| | Posted on Friday, November 04, 2005 - 09:30 pm: |
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What you're planning?
Hon, if you don't love him, that's one things...
If you think that you're not GOOD ENOUGH and want out for that reason--that's not right. It's not fair to either of you.
If he's as sweet as you say, talk to him about how you're feeling to see if you can come to the bottom of it. |
Blulizrdboots
New member
Username: Blulizrdboots
Post Number: 45
Registered: 05-2005
| | Posted on Sunday, November 06, 2005 - 11:05 pm: |
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I thought I'd post that I actually did it...I did break up with him.
Yes it about killed me, but this was something that had been about to happen before I even left for basic. I thought that maybe while I had been there it would have been long enough of a break I thought we needed...but no...it wasn't enough. I don't know....I don't feel as bad as I really believe I should. Perhaps that's a good thing? Anyways, that's about it. |
Sdhrts
New member
Username: Sdhrts
Post Number: 46
Registered: 10-2005
| | Posted on Monday, November 07, 2005 - 02:17 pm: |
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From a man's point of view Bluliz? I think after getting over it and looking back, I'd see it as an act of kindness eventuually. The fact thatyou don't feel as bad, makes me think you did the best thing for yourself. That was not a selfish act at all.
Is IT Better To Give Than To Recieve?
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