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Otk_brett
New member
Username: Otk_brett
Post Number: 12
Registered: 01-2008
| | Posted on Friday, January 25, 2008 - 08:05 am: | 
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Well...it's been almost two weeks since my last spanking (see my post "I'm gonna get it good Monday night"). Usually my spankings are every few weeks and sort of like maintenance spankings. We basically both decide that I'm due for one and I get lectured about the things I've done wrong since the last one. It's not too often that just one incident is the reason for the spanking but the one I'm gonna get in the next couple days definitely is.
On Wednesday I was in a really bad mood and, when she came home, I just sorta snapped and went off. I was definitely out of line and hurt her feelings and she went into the bedroom for the rest of the night. I apologized the next morning and things are fine now.
However, last night we were watching t.v. and there was a reference to being spanked on a show. She said "Don't think you're not gonna get severely punished for the way you talked to me." I didn't say anything and she asked "You didn't think you were going to be punished for that?" I shrugged my shoulders and she just said "Well...you are. I'm thinking Sunday night (which will be the first night that our schedules will allow it) and this time you won't know what implements I'm going to use until I walk in the room." This is a first because I always lay out the implements beside me on the bed while I wait for her and she usually doesn't care which ones. She just tells me to lay a couple out. I didn't say anything and she loudly snapped "Understand?" I quickly said yes and my stomach tingled and that hot nervousness swepped over me.
We have a large heavy wooden paddle with holes in it. It is devestating and leaves bruises immediately. We actually just talked about it a while ago and decided that it would only be used for severe punishments. I am actually scared that it will be in her hand when she walks in the door.
Anybody ever been truly scared before being punished? Not the usual butterflies but actually scared? I know I deserve it because I really was wrong. I'm just worried that I won't be able to take what she is going to dish out this time. |
Bethie
Moderator/Spanking Aficionado
Username: Bethie
Post Number: 1779
Registered: 04-2005
| | Posted on Friday, January 25, 2008 - 03:23 pm: |
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Brett, I think you need to have a discussion with your wife before this punishment begins. If you are truly scared and worried she might take it too far, you need to talk to her about your feelings. No one in any relationship (in this lifestyle or any other) should fear their partner's actions. That's not a good sign.
You say you know you deserve it, but I don't know if that's true if you're really scared. No one deserves to fear their partner. If she carries this through, your relationship could suffer from it. Please talk to her. I know some people think discipline is soley up to the disciplinarian and the spankee has no choice, but I believe when taken to the extreme that it could be detrimental to the relationship. It could breed mistrust and fear of your partner. You're in this relationship, too, you know. You should be allowed to voice your concerns at any time.
Good luck and please keep us updated. |
Otk_brett
New member
Username: Otk_brett
Post Number: 13
Registered: 01-2008
| | Posted on Friday, January 25, 2008 - 04:59 pm: |
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Bethie...you're right about everything you wrote and I can assure you that it's not an abusive relationship. I'm actually a former competitive bodybuilder and could definitely stop any punishment or our lifestyle at any time. Our spanking relationship has evolved over several years and I really trust her to know when enough is enough. I have instilled in her that I want correction to make me a better husband and person and she has agreed to do that for me. I guess my point was that I'm going to get a real punishment spanking...not just the usual maintenance type spanking and I'm a little apprehensive (maybe scared was the wrong choice of word!!!) I know we all get those butterflys and nervousness before we're going to be spanked but I was wondering if anyone else was in the same type of position I'm in....that you're gonna get it REAL GOOD and you're nervous about it.
I definitely don't condone any type of abuse and I'm sorry if I gave the impression that I don't have any say in our spanking relationship if I felt like something was unjust.
I will keep you updated if you'd like!!! |
Bethie
Moderator/Spanking Aficionado
Username: Bethie
Post Number: 1780
Registered: 04-2005
| | Posted on Saturday, January 26, 2008 - 12:15 am: |
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Brett, thank you for clarifying everything for me and I would definitely appreciate an update! |
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